강서에게 Dear Gangseo, 










사람이 소를 죽이는 것을 봤고 개를 죽이는 것을 봤다. 사람이 사람을 찌르는 것을 봤고 목을 죄는 것을 봤고 혼자 죽는 것도 봤다. 선과 악은 인간이 나눈 종이 한 장 차이라는 문장을 읽었고 아담과 이브가 선악과를 먹고 알몸이 부끄러워 가렸다는 문장을 읽었다. 사람이 사람을 수십 번 찔렀고 빨갛지 않은 곳 없이 죽어갔다. 죽은 사람은 말이 없지만 찌른 사람은 ‘평생 이렇게 살아야 하는 것처럼 생각이 드니 죽고 싶은 마음이 들었다’ 라고 말했다. 우리를 살인마로 만들지 않은 수많은 기회들을 생각한다. 피해자를 치료했던 의사는 처참했던 상황과 괴물이었던 사람을 서술하며

’생전에 그를 알던 사람들의 슬픔을 비견할 수 없는 것이라는 사실을 잘 알고 있다. 사회적으로 재발이 방지되기를 누구보다도 강력히 바란다. 그래서 이 언급이 다시금 그 불씨나 도화선이 되기를 바란다’

라고 말했다. 어디선가 나올 법 한 악마에 가까운 사람은 ‘제 말이 닿지는 않겠지만 죄송합니다’ 라고 말했다. 내 말이 닿지는 않겠지만 당신은 천벌을 받고 사회에 사는 나는 살인마를 만든 우리의 책임을 통감한다. 피해자를 치료했던 의사는 덧붙였다.

‘그럼에도 이 글에서 무기력함이 느껴진다면 그것은 어쩔 수 없다 우리 모두는 이 사건에 대한 무기력함의 지분이 있을 것이기 때문이다’

이 작업은 강서구 pc방 살인사건의 피의자 김성수의 기자회견에서 시작한다. 그가 저질렀던 잔혹한 살인과는 다르게 그는 ‘말’을 내뱉는다. 유가족에게 제 목소리가 들리지 않을 것을 알고 있다. 피해자가 본인을 무시했던 행동에 대해 말한다. 본인은 지금껏 그렇게 무시 받으며 살아왔다고 말한다. 다시 평생을 그렇게 살아갈 것을 생각하니 죽고 싶었다고 말한다. 김성수의 가족이 감형을 위해 우울증 진단서를 제출했지만 그는 아니라고 한다. 저지른 죗값을 받겠다 말한다. 기자회견에서 그는 공황발작이 일어난 듯이 숨을 쉬기 힘들어했지만 또박또박 ‘말’을 한다. 그의 ‘말’을 듣고 있자니 저 사람을 저 자리에 서게 만든 것은 무엇이었을까 하는 의문이 생긴다. 피의자와 피해자를 치료했던 의사의 짜깁기한 대사들을 한 사람이 읊는 것으로 우리가 함께 사회에서 길러냈을 지도 모를 범죄자에 대한 이야기를 한다.


In 2018, a horrific murder committed by Kim Seong-soo shocked South Korea. He brutally killed a man working at an internet cafe in Gangseo, a district in western Seoul. This case, widely known as the "Gangseo Internet Cafe Murder Case," remains infamous among Koreans.

The victim was working at the internet cafe when Kim, a customer, asked him to clean his table. The victim ignored the request, and an argument broke out between them. According to Kim, the victim mocked him, claiming his father was a police officer and belittling Kim as powerless and worthless unless he could take a life. Kim said this triggered memories of a life filled with neglect and humiliation. At that moment, he decided he no longer wanted to endure his existence. Enraged, he resolved to kill the victim and then take his own life. Instead, he carried out the vicious attack but did not follow through on his own death.

When I first heard about this case, I felt a deep fear for the society I lived in. I watched Kim’s press interview and was struck by his demeanour. He admitted he fully understood how horrific his actions were and acknowledged that the victim's family would never forgive him. He repeatedly apologised, stating that his crime was inexcusable. What caught my attention most was his claim that others had always ignored him and no longer wanted to live his life. Unlike other criminals I had seen in media coverage, Kim’s words didn’t feel like an excuse or an attempt to justify his actions. His case stood out to me.

Despite Kim’s insistence that he was not mentally ill, his family petitioned for a reduced sentence on the grounds of mental illness. However, a specialist confirmed that Kim was mentally sound and fully aware of his actions. This left me wondering—how could he commit such a heinous act? What drove him to murder?

There can never be a justification for taking a life. Yet, his statements lingered in my mind. The clarity and brevity of his reasoning were unsettling. We all know what it feels like to be ignored or isolated by others. But Kim’s fury wasn’t directed at a single individual—it was aimed at society as a whole. This case also raised questions about the socio-economic backgrounds of offenders, as many come from lower-income households. Perhaps some of us were fortunate enough to avoid circumstances that might have led us down a similar path, but he wasn’t. Could it be that society, in some way, played a role in creating him?

While researching this case, I came across a blog written by Namgung In, the doctor who treated the victim. In his posts, Dr Namgung vividly recounted the moments he fought to save the victim’s life but ultimately failed. He described the horrific injuries the victim sustained and reflected on the broader implications of such violence. He wrote:

"It seems fundamentally inevitable that horrific murders like this will continue to happen in our society. The victim could have been anyone. I sincerely hope we can prevent such crimes from recurring. If you sense lethargy in my words, it’s because this crime reflects the lethargy we all share as a society."

His words deeply resonated with me. They made me question not only the crime itself but also the societal conditions that may have contributed to it.














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